All she wanted was something new.
To visit new places,
To have new experiences
To learn new things.
Her dreams had grown too big to stay within these four walls.
Her mind yearned to be stretched by new experiences.
To become wise.
She couldn’t stay in the same country.
She wanted to travel
Give her India,
Give her Dubai
Even to Maldives and Spain.
She wanted to work so hard that her only dilemma would be deciding which job offer to take.
She wanted to be able to weigh her own options,
Make her own damn decisions for once.
She was a girl with big dreams and unshakeable faith
A girl with a glimmer in her eyes that defined greatness.
You’re so dramatic they say
It bothered her that no one took her seriously,
but she couldn’t let that stop her.
Elusive and dramatic as her dreams were,
They were hers.
She had to hold on to them for it was all she had left.
You’re young, stop over thinking everything and just go out and lime they say
but she outgrew her peers.
And the fads, fetes and fake friends no longer interest her.
She wanted to meet new people
Real people who would see past her concealing smiles and false laughter that hid her pain.
People she can have real conversations with about how they can shape the future.
Get a boyfriend they say!
But why settle?
Just to be able to say you’re in a relationship and post a picture
Or give your virtue to someone who can’t even keep your trust.
I promise you all the likes in the world cant replace true love.
Instead, she wanted to date
Not just one guy but multiple people
Not to give her body to them all
but to learn about them and from them then decide on what she liked or didnt.
She desired more than a label “bf/gf”
But for someone to see past her appearance
Someone who believed in her potential
Who preferred her sense of humour and quick wit than what her body could offer.
Someone she could build a future empire with starting by walking down the aisle.
She dreamt of the day she would become pregnant
How amazing it would be to see and feel
How the female body expands and feeds another living thing
And fall in love before even holding them
She wanted to join a book club
and have brunch with her girlfriends
to discuss their favourite novel.
She wanted to visit schools and help kids
donate to greenhouses and help impoverished villages.
Her goals were no secret
but all who heard just thought she talked too much
and had this wild imagination about things that probably only happened in books and movies.
She was a girl with a desire for newness
A girl who believed in love
But was slowing losing hope for life
Her trust was betrayed
and her spirit was broken
She was fighting to overcome her fear of rejection and failure
And start something new that she can call her own.
If you lose hope then you lose everything.
What’s your reason for living if not to experience all things great.
If not to have dreams and be passionate.
If not to work while you have the chance to accomplish as much as you can.
She was just a girl growing up
Wanting something new.